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so after all my venting i got the job. and i took it. i, hannah king, am moving to houston. in 2.5 weeks.

back to square one

it's funny, life that is. this past week was odd. i got a call on monday for an interview at a school in houston. awesome. so drove to austin wednesday, stayed the night at my dads apartment, woke up at 4 am and drove to houston for my interview at 8:30. the interview started out rough. the principal made kind of a big deal out of my age, but i think she eventually accepted the fact that i'm young. anyway, the interview went pretty good after that. great actually. she had one other person to interview after me, and she said unless they were just awesome, i've got the job. cool, right? well. she told me that regardless of whether she offered me the job, she'd still call me on friday to let me know one way or the other. friday was quite possibly the longest day of my life. the phone never left my hand. and it never rang with a 281 area code.

i'm kind of disappointed that i didn't get the job because i LOVED the school, but more than anything i'm frustrated she didn't call. i know she probably has an excellent reason for not calling, but one of my biggest pet peeves is when you say you'll do something and don't follow through. i know i need to let it go. i just made the mistake of getting my hopes up.

on a much more exciting note, i leave for panama in less than 48 hours. i'm so stoked. i can't wait to see my friends there, be at cresta del mar, and love on some kids. my spanish hasn't been used in sooo long. i'm pretty rusty. i'm sure it will come back just fine. if not, it's not like i knew spanish the first time i went there. or that anyone else on my team does. i'll fit right in.

i'm hopin for a nice tan while i'm there. i looked at some pictures from the first week of summer and realized that i have actually lost my tan this summer. that's never happened before. this is, after all, the first summer in years i haven't spent in a lifeguard stand. hooray for summer school.

anyway. i should pack.

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I'm not gonna lie. I'm kind of going crazy. We planners don't like to not know what we are to plan. It's not healthy for us. This whole "not knowing what's next" thing is pretty much stressing me out. Which it shouldn't, because it is an incredible opportunity for me to learn to trust the Lord. How come I can recognize what I should appreciate and yet still stress? Well friends that is because I, Hannah King, am a stupid sinner. Face it. Mankind is just stupid. We make mistakes, we miss the mark sometimes, and the majority of the time, we know it. Praise the Lord for forgiveness. I know I sure need it. So my new goal is to try to be less of a stress, and lean a little bit more on the Lord. Besides, His plans are way better than mine.

i ramble when i'm tired

it's currently 2:00 am... I went to bed tonight at 10:30, but for some reason woke up and can't fall back a sleep. I know, lame. Who goes to bed at 10:30 on a Friday, but I have to wake up at 6 am for something at my church.

Anyway. The wait is over people. Today, I bought a pair of Chacos. Perhaps that is why I can't sleep. I have waited for so long for a pair of Chacos that I just can't sleep knowing they are in the same room as me and not on my feet.

I'm crazy. And its clearly not my best hour. I leave in a week and 2 days for Panama!! I'm so pumped. I have been countin' down the days since.... well. Since I got back from Panama last summer! I'll be there for 10 days, but I'm totally ok if my passport expires and I can't fly home. Too bad it doesn't expire for.... 7 more years.... awesome.

I hung out with my younger sisters tonight. We had fun. Shopped a little, documented my trip to buy Chacos with silly photos, ate at El Phoenix (our fav), then went home and laid in the hammock for a while. It was fun. I feel like I have missed out on so much this summer because I have been in class since June 1st. But I am officially done! No more classes for me! WAHOO!

Brace yourself... I'm pretty sure I have officially decided to put grad school off for at least the first semester. I think I just need to adjust to being a teacher. I don't need my masters, it was just a dream to have it, but you know what? I don't feel as ambitious as I once did. Funny how God changes our plans. Or, I guess we change our plans when we realize that they weren't the ones God desired for us. Yea, that answer is way better.

If you think about it, say a prayer for me on Monday. The past week to two weeks most schools have been on vacation, and principals come back this Monday. I'm really hoping I'll get (several) calls to come in next week for interviews. I mean, time is ticking. When I get back from Panama (08/08/08... weird...) it will be just days before teachers report back to school.

Anyway. My eye lids are heavy once again, so I shall return back to my nest. Oh, My best friend is now a resident of Australia. Sad for me, stinkin' awesome for her. Em if you are reading this, I miss you.

all other ground is sinking sand

wow. two posts in one week. get excited people.

i've been thinkin a lot about where i am at in life right now, and i've realized that i keep forgetting to seek God in my decisions. it's not like i just make decisions so fast that i don't "have time" to pray over it, because if you know me you know i am the worlds slowest decision maker. i think that i am just in the bad habit of asking everyone around me and basing my decisions on what they think is a good idea and how i feel about it. pretty dumb, huh? if Christ really is the solid rock that i stand on, how come i keep choosing to build my life on sinking sand?

what got me thinkin' about this was when i realized i never prayed over my decision to work at Paschal High School. ever since i got the offer, i haven't really felt 100% about it, but i didn't exactly get hired anywhere (yet), so it seems like it's my only option...right?

nope. i'm gonna keep up the job search. if no other doors open, i'll go to Paschal, but right now, i'm just going to keep PRAYING that the Lord leads me down His path and shows me where He desires for me to be. until then, i'm just gonna lean on Him. that's about all i can do.

“For it stands in Scripture: ‘Behold, I am laying in Zion a stone, a cornerstone chosen and precious, and whoever believes in Him will not be put to shame’” 1 Peter 2:6

Poor Arkadoo

So this past weekend was Jessie's wedding. It was absolutely beautiful. SHE was beautiful. See? I was pretty nervous about singin at the wedding, but the Lord was faithful and I didn't mess it up too bad! :) Anyway, being around the girls from school brought up a lot of thoughts and memories from school... there are so many things I wish I had done, many things I'm glad I didn't do... then I started thinkin' about good 'ole Arkadelphia, and realized... it is GOOD to be home. As much as I loved college there are a few things I do not miss. For example: I do not miss going to chapel, being forced to take classes I am uninterested in, not liking the churches in the area, having to drive 45 mins for real food or a coffee shop, Sonic that closes at 10:30 (I mean seriously!!), social clubs, and of course, we can't forget they dying town. Poor Arkadoo. Livin' in the 'delph was great, but I sure do like being home.